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  There were still many Taglians who had not served in the armies nor traveled south to see what legacy the Shadowmasters had left in the lands retaken from their rule. Men who did not believe simply because they preferred something else to be true.

  This was an unending squabble that might not be settled in my lifetime. There was a war on and as long as we did not yet have it won the “Kill them now!” school of thinking would remain a distinct minority. But the “Kill them later!” school had plenty of members.

  “There aren’t more than fifty or sixty of them,” the Radisha countered. “How hard can it be to dispose of them once they’ve outlived their usefulness?”

  “Pretty damned hard, I imagine. The Shadowmasters haven’t managed. Neither have the Deceivers.”

  “Steps are being taken.”

  Interesting. I had not seen any sign of that.

  Time to cruise days gone by, then.

  Away I went. Skipping like a seven-year-old girl, toes coming down every hour or so as I headed toward the last time I checked on the Woman. There was not much there. A lot of the same stuff. One idea after another bounced off Cordy Mather in the deeps of night, every one rejected by Mather, and the more vigorously so the better the Woman seemed to like them.

  Of more interest was the fact that she had started looking for Smoke. In fact, she was getting suspicious, though not yet in any major way. Mather kept telling her we were all right and must have made some arrangement to look out for Smoke. We would not just let the old boy starve.

  “They hate him, dear. He did everything he could to undercut the Black Company.”

  “They would find a crueler way to get even. After they woke him up. So he could appreciate the pain.”

  Cordy echoed my thoughts perfectly. Starvation would do fine but I wanted him conscious while he went.

  Waking up to find himself in our hands might just be enough. He would have a shit hemorrhage.

  All the way back to my last visit I found nothing particularly exciting. The Woman never said anything interesting except when she was finished using Mather and then she said nothing original. Yet I could not help thinking that something was going on.

  She was the Radisha Drah. Her whole life had been spent aware that everything she said or did might be observed by someone who did not wish her well.

  I skipped back to today but did not find anything to hurry back to the Old Man.

  There would be some excitement when the news from Charandaprash arrived. People would stop thinking as clearly and carefully. I would be back.

  I took a dive into Smoke’s old hiding place before I left. The old Annals were right where I had hidden them.

  Interesting to note, though, as I departed, that there were crows all over the Palace district.

  One-Eye was still cursing when I came out. Cursing again, I learned, as I let myself down from the rear of the wagon. A different wheel was stuck. We had moved several miles. I was bone dry. I lifted the lid on One-Eye’s waterbarrel. There was not much there. The little that remained was pretty nasty. I drank it anyway.

  I walked around to where One-Eye was abusing a fresh crew of victims. “You little shit. Quit barking at the help. They’ll stuff that damned hat down your throat and I’ll end up having to walk. Where’s the Old Man?”

  35

  “Crows all over, eh?” Croaker mused. “Interesting. Guess it doesn’t surprise me.”

  “Hers?” There were crows around us right now. Naturally. He would not let Lady run them off.

  “Probably.”

  “Are they all nowadays?”

  “Take it for granted. You won’t be unpleasantly surprised. Tell me about Longshadow.” The last sentence was not verbal at all but in the finger speech we had learned way back when Darling, the White Rose, was with the Company. We employed it sparingly anymore and I had not thought of using it to get around the crows. It was so obvious when you considered it. There would be no way for the critters to relay the signs.

  Nobody believed that the birds understood what they relayed now. They just carried the words.

  My fingers were no longer as nimble as once they had been. I had a hard time telling him that Longshadow had done a turnaround and was all business now, calm and sane and decisive.

  “Interesting,” he said. He looked up the pass. The Prince’s troops, in the vanguard, had sprung a Shadowlander ambush. The fighting was getting heavy. The column was crushing up behind it. This could get bad.

  I looked at the slopes rising to either hand. If Mogaba had a lot of men up there he could embarrass us easily.

  “He doesn’t,” Croaker said, as though I had spoken my thoughts.

  “You’re getting spooky.” He wore most of the fancy Widowmaker armor most of the time now. There was hardly ever a time when he did not have a crow on his shoulder. He seemed to know his favorites because he always had tidbits for them.

  “When I have to play a role I try to live it.” He began talking with his fingers again. “I want you to find Goblin. It is critical.”

  “Huh?”

  He signed, “I would do it myself but there is no time.” Aloud, he added, “These delaying tactics are working very well for Mogaba. This pass is just too damned tight.” He turned away, strode up the stalled column. The Prahbrindrah Drah was about to get talked to like a new recruit.

  Suddenly, over his shoulder, he shot, “Where’re your in-laws, Murgen?”

  “What?”

  “Where are they? What’re they up to?” He used colloquial Taglian, which meant he did not care what Thai Dei heard. Or specifically wanted him to know about the query.

  “I haven’t seen them.” I glanced at Thai Dei. He shook his head. “Maybe they went home.”

  “I don’t think so. If that was the case the rest of these clowns would be gone with them. Wouldn’t they?”

  I did not think so but there was no need arguing the point. Croaker would never be comfortable with the Nyueng Bao. I told him I would keep an eye out and would let him know if I learned anything, then moved along.

  I ran into Sleepy on the way back to One-Eye’s wagon. “Hey, kid. How you doing?” I had not seen him since I gave him his assignment that night in Taglios. He had been working with Big Bucket, helping oversee the special forces teams. He looked tired but still not old enough to be a soldier.

  “I’m tired and hungry and beginning to wonder if being buttfucked by my uncles really was worse than this.”

  Anybody who could sustain a sense of humor after what Sleepy had suffered was all right by me.

  I wondered if he would ever go back and kill them. I doubted it. That sort of thing was acceptable in this bizarre southern culture.

  Sleepy asked, “You talk to the Captain yet?”

  “I talk to him all the time. I’m the Annalist.”

  “I mean about the standardbearer job. You said you might...”

  “Oh. Yeah.” His excitement was obvious. But becoming standardbearer meant those above you thought you were destined for big things in the Company. The standardbearer often became Annalist. Frequently he became Lieutenant because he was always near the center of things and knew everything that was going on. The Lieutenant almost always becomes Captain when the job comes open.

  Croaker was an anomaly of epic proportion, elected at a time when there were only seven of us, none more qualified, and nobody else would take the job.

  “I bounced it off him. He didn’t say no. He’ll probably leave it up to me. And that means it’s a someday sort of thing because right now everybody in this army is working twenty hours a day. There’s no time to teach you anything.”

  “We’re not doing anything. I could just hang around you and —”

  Big Bucket’s voice rose above all the other tumult of an army on the move, telling Sleepy to get his dead ass back up here, they’ve decided nobody else can crack this nut but us.

  “Good luck. And don’t get in a hurry, kid,” I told him. “Hell. Do like I’m doing wit
h the Annals. Wait till the siege of Overlook. We’ll have plenty of time then. Including learning to read and write.”

  “I’ve been learning. Believe it or not. I know fifty-three common characters already. I can puzzle out almost anything.”

  Written Taglian is fairly complicated because there are more than a hundred characters in the common alphabet and another forty-two in the High Taglian used only by Gunni priests. A lot of the characters duplicate what they mean but distinguish caste. Caste is very important among the Gunni.

  “Keep at it,” I told Sleepy. “You’ll make it on determination.”

  “Thanks, Murgen.” The kid began scooting uphill, sliding through the press like he was greased.

  “Don’t thank me,” I mumbled. Most standardbearers are not as lucky as I have been. It is not a job with an extended life expectancy.

  I spotted Lady across the pass, as always surrounded by her admirers and most of the Nar who had not deserted the Company. I headed that way.

  36

  Men moved to let me through. Things like that happen when you can leave someone as a good taste or foul odor in history’s mouth. Croaker really made the importance of the Annals an article of faith with everyone in the Company.

  Lady looked around. Her ordinarily impassive expression betrayed an instant of irritation. I said, “Looks like we’re going to be stalled here till Bucket’s crew convince Mogaba’s people they’d really rather go home and get in out of this weather.”

  That was looking kind of bleak. A wind was building. It was colder than the wind had been for days. Heavy clouds were piling up overhead. Looked as if we were going to get some snow.

  “Yeah. Let’s hope,” Swan said. “We need to get down out of these rocks.” He was not talking to me, really. “I hate mountains.”

  “I’m not too fond of cold and snow, either,” I said. Of Lady I asked, “You really need to keep avoiding me?”

  “What do you want to know?”

  “How can you be getting your powers back? I thought that business in the Barrowland stripped you forever.”

  “I’m a thief. Otherwise, none of your business.”

  Her entourage sneered at me, mostly because they thought that would make points with her.

  “Have you been dreaming again?”

  She thought about that one before admitting, “Yes.”

  “I thought so. You’ve been looking a little ragged.”

  “You want to play you have to pay the price. What about you, Annalist?”

  I found I was reluctant to reveal anything. Especially in front of those guys. I forced myself. “Yeah. Something that might have been Kina turned up in my dreams a couple times. Almost like an intrusion from outside. I wondered if that might have been the same time she was bothering you.”

  That interested her. You could see the thoughts begin moving behind her eyes, the consideration, the calculation. She told me, “If it happens again, note the time. If you can.”

  “I’ll try. How did you manage to go head-to-head with Kina the other night and come out in one piece?”

  Without missing a beat Lady shifted to Groghor, a language on its last death rattle. “That was not Kina.” I learned it from my grandmother, whose people had all been wiped out in the consolidation wars that had built the Lady’s empire. Granny was dead and so was my mother and I had not used the tongue except to cuss people out since I signed on with the Company.

  “How do you...?” I sputtered. “How could you know that I...?”

  “The Captain has been kind enough to have your work copied and forwarded to me. You mentioned Groghor somewhere. I am a little rusty. I have not spoken this language in more than a century. Pardon my lapses.”

  “You’re doing fine. But why bother?”

  “My sister never learned the language. Nor did this bunch, half of whom are probably spies for someone.”

  “What’s the deal? You said that wasn’t Kina. Sure fooled me if it wasn’t. Sure fit the description.”

  “That was my beloved sister. Pretending to be Kina. I expect she surprised Kina’s worshippers as much as she surprised the rest of us.”

  “But...” The Daughter of Night had seemed happy enough.

  “I can touch the real Kina, Murgen. Believe me. It’s why I don’t sleep well. The real Kina is still in her trance. She can only touch the world in dreams. And I have to stay a part of those dreams.”

  “So Kina is definitely real, then?”

  “There is something that fits the bill of particulars, Murgen. I’m not sure that when it’s awake it thinks of itself as Kina or as a goddess. It does want to bring on the Year of the Skulls. It does want to get free of its chains. But these are just emotions I have gained from it over the years. It is far too alien for me to know it well.”

  “Like Old Father Tree?”

  She had to think to remember the tree-god thing that had ruled the Plain of Fear and defied her when she was still the Lady.

  “I never touched that mind.”

  “Why would your sister pretend to be Kina?”

  “I have never known why my sister does any of the things she does. She has never been rational. Two does not follow One in her scheme, nor does Three come before Four. She is capable of spending incredible energies and vast fortunes on the execution of a prank. She is capable of destroying cities without ever being able to explain why. You can know what she is doing but not why or you can know why she is doing something but not what. She was that way when she was three years old, before anyone knew she was cursed with the power, too.”

  “You believe you’re cursed?”

  She actually smiled. When she did her beauty shone through. “By an insane sister, for sure. I wish I had even the foggiest notion why she’s just out there, doing nothing but watching and constantly reminding us that she’s there.”

  “Reminding us?”

  “Don’t you get a little tired of those damned crows?”

  “Yes, I do. I thought revenge was her thing.”

  “If that was all she wanted she would have squashed me a long time ago.”

  There was a stir behind me. Scores of eyes were staring at us as everyone in earshot tried to figure out what was going on. It had to be some secret if we were going to talk it over in a language nobody knew.

  Willow Swan looked like his feelings were hurt.

  “Excuse me, sir,” said a voice from behind me. “The Liberator’s compliments and would you be so good as to get your ass on about the job he gave you? He said to suggest that he wants the answer before sundown.”

  That was not in a language no one else understood. It cheered Swan right up. Even Lady chuckled.

  I do believe I blushed. “I’ll want to pursue this further,” I told Lady, who did not seem thrilled by the prospect. To the messenger, who happened to be the nephew of a prominent Taglian general, I said, “Just for that I think I’ll go do what the Old Man wants.”

  37

  It took me a long time to find Goblin but there was no hurry. The Shadowlanders up the pass were being particularly stubborn. Big Bucket was having to use a lot of firebombs to root them out.

  I found it hard to believe. Goblin was on the other side of the Dandha Presh. His Shaded Road was an expedition that had pushed a commando force across the Shindai Kus. Croaker had talked about the possibility once, ages ago, before we ever even went after Dejagore, but I always thought it was completely impractical. So much so that the possibility had not occurred to me even when I had found Goblin on the shore of the Shindai Kus.

  Goblin was still Goblin. The desert only baked it in. “I’m one step and ten seconds short of exhaustion,” he complained to the man nearest him, a Company brother named Bubba-do who was not too bright and who, I noted, kept Goblin on his left side, which was where he had the bad ear. “But I’m here. I’m in place. I’m on time. And nobody knows we’re here.”

  Lights flared in the mountains above. Tiny balls of fire rose over the high Dandha Presh. Bub
ba-do said, “Looks like da Captain won his bet.”

  “I’m worried. This damned thing’s been going too good. I’ve been fighting these people for years. I know how they think. I know Mogaba.” So did Bubba-do but that did not matter in Goblin’s view. “He ain’t going to let himself get whipped by Croaker. Whole point of him going over to the Shadowmaster was he wanted to prove he was a better soldier and general.”

  Goblin went on and on. His men ignored him most of the time. After he had heard scouting reports about the surrounding terrain he allowed his men to build several small, carefully hidden fires. That side of the Dandha Presh was colder than the northern slope. It was impossible to manage without heat if you were not moving.

  “I should’ve found a farm. Maybe a small town. Someplace where we could get inside.”

  “That would mean killing a bunch of people so they couldn’t rat on us and that probably wouldn’t do any good anyway because somebody probably would’ve got away.”

  It was almost dark. The excitement in the mountains was getting colorful. I began to wonder if Mogaba himself was not up there directing the resistance.

  “You got company,” somebody said. Instantly everybody at Goblin’s fire found a chore that had to be handled right away somewhere else. Everyone but Goblin’s Nyueng Bao bodyguard, who was a man so unobtrusive I had yet to learn his full name. It was Thane, Trine, something like that. This man merely moved to a place more comfortable on a taller rock and laid his sword across his lap, ready for business.

  The reason the others wanted to be elsewhere was evident a moment later. I had found one of my missing targets.

  A huge, cruel-looking black panther stalked out of the darkness, settled near the fire. Goblin reached out and scratched her behind the ears.

  What the hell? This particular panther had no love for him. Though her squabble with One-Eye was an order of magnitude bigger.

  “So you decided to help out after all, eh?” Goblin said. “It never was that hard to get along.” Off he went on an odyssey of the imagination, describing in fantastic detail why she was a natural ally of the rest of us despite One-Eye’s having had to do in Shapeshifter. Shifter really had given him no choice, now, had he? Anyway, it was only a matter of time before they completed their research into the character of release spells. Last time he saw One-Eye they were just three terms and a postulate short of putting a wrap on it.